Yes. Yes. Yes. Pardon me? Yes. Still injured. Yes it is taking a long time. Very little blood flow to connective tissue and all that…. No I’m not getting any younger? Yes I’ve had it looked at. Yes.
Quit acting like I’m a teenager? Yes that’s good advice. Yes. No I haven’t lost any more weight. If I get sick? I’m sure I’ll be fine. Yes I am eating. I know I’m not 18 years old. Yes yes.
Nope I’m quitting BJJ for sure. No more running or dieting either. In fact I’m going to give up on enjoying life completely and develop an underachieving and self absorbed attitude just like everyone who thinks they know how to make my life “better”. Wish I’d kept my fat clothes…oh yeah, never had any.
I don’t think much of people who resort to the use of profanity. Guess that makes me a hypocrite.
You wake up, shower drive, meetings, computer stuff, drive, physio therapy, tortellini and tomato sauce, dishes, kiss kiss, bang bang…. blah blah.
Then someone nice gives you a call and is so positive that you smile.
Then you ask the boys if, on the off chance, they might consider contemplating, the possibility of riding my coveted Rocky Mountain race bike beside me while I run in the dark? Who am I kidding? They’re on their computers.
Then, I decide that bed is a better option, I get a drink, and Aidan brings in the dogs.
Now Aidan, to be fair, rides beside me a lot. he always has. But wait…
“What was that about a bike ride in the dark?”, Liam asks.
So we’re back. Ran 7.5km on dark trails and quiet streets. Liam rode and lit the way with my Petzl head lamp. And we talked.
Life is very very good.
So no BJJ for a while if I’m smart. I rowed today and that didn’t hurt. Tomorrow will run. We’ll see how it is tomorrow night but I’m guessing it needs a couple of weeks rest. Minimum. CRAP.
My first flip video. Bought a flip video camera cheap on ebay to use for BJJ. Here’s a test vid. The pic below the vid shows the flip plugged into the usb on my netbook. There is no software installation or power cord because the flip has all of it’s programming on board and charges through the usb. It is quite tiny (smaller than my cell phone).
A bit of a lull. So to speak. While I examine my motivation.
It took a lot of will power, that I didn’t know I had, to get ready for the tournament. I didn’t expect to be quite so nervous either.
So now what? I enjoy the classes, the rolling, the challenge. I admire the people who go hard and work at it. So now what?
I am older than most BJJ students. I’ll be 47 in July. Some days I feel like I am invincible. Strong, lean. Other times, broken and sore.
Thing is…I’m going to stay with it. Against all good sense. It takes a long time to get a blue belt. And there is no Master’s class after white. I’ll need to work twice as hard and 5 times as smart to compete with the younger guys. It takes even longer to get purple. I don’t know whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing that I latch onto things and then go after them like I do.
Discipline and curiosity. It’s what I do.
……….Time for a workout. All things being equal, and at my age they are not, one needs to have a really meaningful strength to weight ratio.
When Yoda said “Do or do not, there is no try“, he was taking advantage of the fact that his little green alien body needed virtually no food to survive.
Well I am trying and so far it’s getting me nowhere. On a diet of not much more than air and a cup or two of coffee a day, I am gaining weight. WTF? I have noticed that joint inflammation seems to be lower. AND, I have no energy which is a bonus.
So, having gained a pound on my journey to cut weight, I’m going to do what I always do…. stubbornly keep going. Ha!
I’m a sucker for this sort of thing. S-U-C-K-E-R
The 6:38 mark of this video is the best. Trumpets and horses charging down through the trees.
I am having a bit of trouble finding time to actually live my life. Today I got up at 3am and drove from Kingston to Woodstock on business. Then turned around and drove back. I actually stopped on the way there and slept at the side of the road for a while. Not a good sleep but I was right out. Boy, Toronto at rush hour twice in one day is a bumper to bumper thrill of a lifetime.
In any case I am home. Power cooked dinner, got the Gi’s together and headed out. Only to realize that Aidan’s mouthpiece is in my car which is still parked at the rental place. So no BJJ tonight. The timeline was too tight to exchange cars AND make it to class. I’m kinda pissed to be honest.
Something’s gotta give.
We watched “Moon”. I quite enjoy movies that spark sporadic discussion for a day or two after we have watched it. The consensus was it was good that they didn’t use superstars, and that it was nice that the AI didn’t turn on anyone.
Diet wise – veggies and eggs for breakfast. And a coffee. So far on track. Last night was good too. Annette cooked me tilapia, sweet potato and cabbage.
Work is still busy with shutdown. I just can’t seem to get ahead of home commitments when I leave for work at 6am and don’t get home until 6:30pm.
The clock change definitely put a wrench in things too.
So today I need to get ahead of the laundry situation. The boys are on March break and it sucks that we can’t do something because of shutdown. The excuses only go so far before they realize I am putting work ahead of them. I don’t know what else to do. Employment is not optional.
Liam and I discussed arithmetic progressions this morning (this is what occupies his mind).
I’d like to do a decent workout today as well.
